Hey everyone! This week has been hectic, to say the least, and I've had a lot going on. Early mornings, observations at various middle schools and job hunting have all surrounded my school work in a never-ending vortex of misery that is unavoidable. I'm hoping the next month goes by quickly because I'd love to feel a sense of relief.
I have good news and bad news surrounding the job hunt. The bad news is that my interview this morning, although I feel it went well, revealed that I was not who they were looking for in terms of availability. It didn't feel as bad as I thought it would, partially because of the good news. The woman conducting the interview mentioned that she loved English majors and that she would pass on my resume to another department looking to fill a different position with more flexibility. I'm hoping this works in my favor and if all goes well I'll have another interview next week.
While I was waiting to go into my interview I had a lot of time to think about things, about what I wanted and about how desperately I need a job, (I'm starting to feel sad just sitting at home by myself all the time...). Then I thought about God and asking Him to help me, which I've done before. I apologize for anyone who reads this who is very religious, but I swear my views are only my own and not meant to hurt anybody's feelings. I've prayed before to God for help, for answers and for life and I don't think it's ever worked for me. This may be my fault for not getting accustomed to my original faith of Catholicism, but I don't think God has ever heard me in a way that we both understand each other. I don't doubt His existence, nor do I condone it. I've never been an overly religious person, but I've learned about religion for various kinds of people, including Judaism, Protestant, Mormonism, etc. There are aspects of other religions that I agree with and can see as probable, at least in my eyes. That is to say I do think there's a higher power with some divine control over what happens around us, but I can't explain it further than that I'm afraid.
Back to my original thought, as I was sitting there, waiting to go into the interview, I clutched my lucky clover bracelet and asked my grandmother for help. I don't know why because she probably wouldn't be able to help me get a job even if she were still alive, but I miss her wisdom. I would always ask her advice to get to know situations from another perspective besides my own and I can't do that anymore. I think what I'm saying is that I'd rather pray to my own family than to someone I don't know because I know my family will hear me and listen. I do believe that they can see us from where ever they are and they are watching over us. I'm so unsure of myself sometimes it's amazing I'm still a functioning human being, but I was nervous and didn't know what else to do, so I called out to her, (not vocally, but internally so the other people in the lobby wouldn't think I was crazy...). I guess I felt like I needed a little bit of extra luck today, but obviously I didn't get it. Us Irish girls put a lot on luck and I think sometimes we treat it as an alternative form of religion, but it doesn't always work for us. I don't blame them for not offering me the job because my availability wouldn't work for them but I was still disappointed in myself for getting my hopes up. Some things are non-negotiable and you have to just run with it. I'm hopeful that I will find a job soon, I just don't know where at this point.
Sorry that was sort-of deep and somewhat off-topic, but let's skip to something more fun now! I have two pop-culture-related things to talk about, number one being The Bachelor, (SPOILERS if you haven't already guessed yet). With this episode in Miami, I'm not sure what's going to happen now. My dad's vision may come to light because at this point, especially with the previous for next week's two-day home town visit, I don't know if he'll actually end up with anyone. He must be quite a dumb pervert to mess this up: having over 25 women at your disposal and ruining it at the last second. We'll see what happens, but I'm still routing for Renee and Andi as my top two girls. I'm on the fence about Nikki now, but I think her attitude may have an explanation just because of Claire and her bat shit crazy ways of manipulation working against Nikki's rejection of this alternative reality. Again, we'll see.
The second thing is the new Guardians of the Galaxy trailer has premiered on Jimmy Kimmel the other night and OH MY GOD it is amazing! The video is posted below for your viewing pleasure. I'm not sure how authentic to the comic it will be, (judging by my husband's gripes about certain character's origin stories, there's bound to be some confusion and outrage among comic fans). But the trailer proves that it will at least be a kick-ass action film, so I am excited nonetheless. Please join me in my enthusiasm! I'M HOOKED ON A FEELIN'!!!
That's all I have for this week. If you want something interesting to look into, I posted a neat article in my ENGL 889 tab this week about "Twitch Plays Pokemon" and his continuous game play project. There are links to the live video stream, an article that gives a great explanation of what's going on, and a link to the Google document with all the goals and achievements to date that have been tracked by the participants. It's really cool stuff if you're interested in affinity spaces, gaming or just Pokemon Red/Blue. Next week is school vacation week, so I'm hoping to focus more on my job hunt while my internship and observation hours are put on hold for the time being. Until next time, I remain your faithful correspondent.
Another Tuesday taken by a rogue storm. I swear someone up there is out to get me, but what can you do really? The weather clearly doesn't want me to have a job, but as I have done before I will continue to be optimistic.
The snow could not keep me from my observations at the middle school, although they did have an early release. I got to see two teachers I really admire and I think they are my top two contenders for my internship next year. They both have different teaching styles, but they are both fun, energetic and bring a lot of activity into their classrooms. I would benefit from having either one of them as a mentor, but unfortunately the tough part is picking only one... Next week is winter vacation for us, so I'll have to wait two weeks to see them again and make some decisions, but I'm feeling better about my chances.
One of the two teachers I got to visit with today had Lupus. This is a huge deal to me because usually I don't find random people in public who know what Lupus is, let alone have it. It's not one of the common diseases everyone knows a lot about; in fact, it's the exact opposite. So to find a teacher who has Lupus, who I can talk to, who understands me from not only an intellectual level but a physical level, is huge for me. That sold it for me and I believe we were fated to be together in this journey, however I have to make a minimum of three school visits, so I have to wait. But I think we both understand each other and know that we'll end up together. She makes me feel excited, so I hope I get her! Fingers crossed, knock on wood and all that jazz.
That's literally the only exciting thing happening in my life right now. I have some homework to do that involves actually seeing and talking to people and I don't feel like doing that. I also had to reschedule my very important interview AGAIN, for a third time, for Thursday morning, so fingers crossed again for me doing ok with that so I can FINALLY have a job again. I feel like I'd really like it there and that I'd be good at the job, so I hope it's mine. They already took the posting off the website, so either they are holding out for me and already plan on giving me the job, or they are giving me the benefit of the doubt out of pity and already have someone else in mind. UGH, the suspense is KILLING me...slowly.
Since I've been spending so much time indoors and slowly getting less involved with the TMNT, I've picked up another series I had been eyeing for some time. The Borgias has been very similar to The Tudors in the sense that they are both Show Time programs with a lot of drama. I like seeing the plot line unfold from the Borgia perspective, having viewed them in a negative light since seeing the family featured in the Assassin's Creed games. In this series they are very much a troubled family with many secrets. There's a lot of death and less sex, which I guess is great if you like that sort of thing. Personally I like watching how certain relationships unfold, destroy themselves and come back again. The intrinsic properties of this show are the engrossing story line, the historical elements and the strife of the warring nations. I'm looking forward to the second season now that I've finished the first.
Comic book geeks may enjoy the "Jimmy Kimmel Live!" show tonight, around 11:30, when they show the trailer for the Guardians of the Galaxy movie coming out this August. My husband is extremely excited about this, having more than one collection of these comics to his name. I am intrigued by the plot line and the characters, but then again they are what makes the story work in harmony. I only hope that it will live up to his expectations, but I'm not going to jump the gun.
That's it for me today. Hopefully Thursday I will have more to report after my interview:) Until next time, I remain your faithful correspondent.
